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[16 Jul 2006|04:09pm] |
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visit #4 to the Nantucket Hospital ER: check.
I don't know what's wrong with me this summer; I keep getting deathly ill. I don't think landscaping/drinking agree with my body.
real friends stay with you at the ER for 4 hours and treat you to dinner on the beach after.
I can't believe I've only known these people for a couple months. How am I going to leave??
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[22 May 2006|01:39pm] |
so, I'm home from work with a wrist injury. apparently when I broke it at age 10 it didn't heal right and now I have a ligament injury from too much heavy lifting. awesome. I have to go back to work in a couple days, there's no way I can take off as much time as they want me to. I have this huge awesome splint on my arm and I have to get an MRI next thursday. why didn't I find out about this 8 years ago?!
oh, well, extended weekend, good thing the next couple of days are going to be beach days.
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[17 May 2006|09:05pm] |
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i love getting involved with flaky guys. seriously.
fuck.
I'm working close to 70 hours this week. I've never been this sore/sunburned/exhausted in my entire life. but now I can ride my bike for hours without breaking a sweat and that feels pretty good.
I can't wait until the season starts up and things start moving around here.
Becky is teaching me how to surf this weekend.
things are okay, hopefully they'll get better. I want my paycheck already.
it makes me really sad that more people vote for American Idol than for the presidential elections.
13 hour work day tomorrow. oh man. going to bed this early is definately different than the life I was living in Boston.
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[27 Apr 2006|08:22pm] |
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so! two final projects were done today, and both went pretty well. art history was fine, and form study went really, really well. I nailed the presentation, and what can I say, I'm pretty proud of myself. then somehow the class took a turn and it turned into an interview of me and this other girl in my class because we're both synesthetic. such a strange thing, how people are so fascinated by other people's flaws.
I'm getting ready to leave, I need to pack all of my things and get out of here a week from tomorrow. I'm still not sad about it, but I am going to miss all these people over the summer, and I'm going to miss having them right next door next year. for now, I'm ready to get out of here. I've never had such dislike for a building in my life. so, I'm home from friday to sunday, and I leave monday for the whole summer. It's about time to move on. I don't think I could have handled another summer in north andover. tomorrow andy and I are looking at apartments, hopefully we can figure out this whole mess in one go. ughhhhhhhh
off to the gym, then coffee date with molly!
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[03 Apr 2006|01:17am] |
It's going to pour on tuesday. I can't wait. My living situation for next year is finally becoming definate. My saturday night was amazing. Everything in my life is really good; I don't even know how I found such amazing friends, I have such an amazing summer in front of me. I don't understand how I can get so sad sometimes and it makes it even worse that there's nothing to be upset about, so I can't fix it. I need to not drink anymore. Anxiety takes over too much of my life, and I don't understand my thought process or the way my mind works in any sense, but I'm getting used to it and the fact that I'm probably never going to figure it out. oh well, life is good right now; I'm learning not to just get through things and live from one high point in my life to the next and pay attention to everything inbetween. I'm starting to write again, I'm starting to kick bad habits and pick up new ones, overall I feel so much older than I did eight months ago.
I have a six-day weekend starting tuesday evening. Let's hang out.
SAD SECTION.
01. Have you ever really cried your heart out? yes.
02. Have you ever cried yourself to sleep? sure.
03. Have you ever cried on your friend's shoulder? oh, yeah.
04. Have you ever cried over the opposite sex? unfortunately.
05. Do you cry when you get an injury? never.
06. Do certain songs make you cry? rarely.
HAPPY SECTION.
01. Are you a happy person? you know, I don't know what I am right now, but I suppose overall I am.
02. What can always make you happy? stability, and what leah said. reassurance.
03. Do you wish you were happier? definately. it'll come.
04. Is being happy overrated? definately not.
05. Can music make you happy? sure.
LOVE SECTION.
01. How many times have you had your heart broken? none, in the real sense of the term.
02. Have you ever loved someone so much that you'd die for them? my family, my friends.
03. Anyone besides your friends/family ever said they loved you? yes.
04. Have you ever been head over heels? yes.
05. Who are two people you love right now? just two?
HATE SECTION.
01. Who do you actually hate? no one.
02. Have you ever made a hit list? nope.
03. Have you ever been on a hit list? hope not.
04. Are you a mean bully? haha
05. Do you hate George Bush? absolutely.
SELF ESTEEM SECTION.
01. Are you good looking? uhh
02. Do you wish you could be someone else? no, just slightly different sometimes.
LOOK AT ME.
01. What is your current hair color? brown/blonde or something.
02. Whats your natural color? dirty blonde.
03. What color are your eyes? green.
04. Current Piercings? 6.
05. Straight Hair or Curls? straight.
CURRENTLY WEARING.
01. What shirt are you wearing? north andover ski team t-shirt.
02. Shorts? jeans.
03. Shoes? none.
04. Underwear? i'm wearing a pair?
05. Necklaces? nope.
THIS OR THAT.
01. Rock or rap: both.
02. Coffee or Hot Cocoa: coffee.
03. Wild Night out or Romantic Night in: depends.
04. Chocolate or Vanilla: chocolate.
05. Hummer or Sports Car: UGHHHHHHH
06. Bracelet or Necklace: necklace.
07. History or Science: history.
08. Sleep in or Early to rise: sleep in.
09. Beach or Boardwalk; beach.
10. Hoodie or Tee Shirt; both.
11. Night or Day: night.
12. High School or college: oh god college.
13. California or Florida: California.
14. Love at first sight or Learn to Love: you shouldn't have to learn to love.
HAVE YOU EVER.
01. Hugged someone? uh yeah.
02. Been on the phone until the sun came up? yes.
03. Put a song on repeat for more than an hour? maybe.
04. Laughed so hard you peed in your pants? probably.
LASTS.
01. person you talked to in person? Molly.
02. person you talked to online? Andy.
03. person you talked to on the phone? Greg.
05. laugh? an hour ago. watching The Notebook with four guys has to be one of the funniest things I've experienced. ever.
06. last time you had a shower? half hour ago.
0THER.
01. Do you like surveys? I'm bored.
02. What kind of shampoo do you use? Dove.
03. Do you get along with your parents? definately.
04. Do you have mental breakdowns? sometimes.
05. Did you ever fake being sick? for about three months straight in seventh grade.
CURRENT.
01. Current Mood: content.
02. Current music: Sunset Rubdown.
03. Current hair: is wet.
04. Current Longing: I'm not sure.
05. Current Thing I Ought To Be Doing: homework.
06. Current Windows Open: a few.
07. Current desktop picture: the infamous pirate nun.
08. Current Favorite Music Artist: Spencer Krug.
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[30 Mar 2006|05:38pm] |
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yesterday was one of the best days I've had in awhile. The good weather is picking up my mood so much more that I expected. Here's ( yesterday's trip to the arboretum )
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[26 Mar 2006|08:02pm] |
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why is it that the good guys always date the mean girls and the nice girls always manage to date the worst guys? I hate watching everyone hurt each other all around me. I'm so confused.
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[22 Mar 2006|09:08pm] |
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this week has probably been the most stressful one I've had in a year. Between almost getting kicked out of housing (thank god that didn't happen), a rediculous workload, getting/losing an apartment, and just generally living and interacting in smith hall..ugh. I miss my family. And I hate to be one of those girls who complains about this, but I'm getting pretty tired of being single. Being lonely isn't a good feeling. On the upside, I have some definate exciting plans for the summer, some good friends to visit me there, some good classes for the fall, and (hopefully) an apartment for next year.
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[18 Mar 2006|01:22pm] |
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that was BY FAR the MOST RETARDED thing I have done this year. I can't wait until I can look back on last night and laugh, but for now I'm in a whole lot of trouble. gahhhh
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[17 Mar 2006|02:05am] |
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tonight did a number on my self-esteem, and it probably shouldn't have. I don't even understand the way my mind works most of the time.
and I hate that I'm missing someone I'm not supposed to.
gahhhh
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[10 Mar 2006|11:19pm] |
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so! it's official; my parents now think that I'm so lost career-wise that they have taken it upon themselves to find me a career counselor. a CAREER COUNSELOR. oh, well, this will be interesting if nothing else.
I'm also still trying to decide what I want to do with my summer-I have the option of living on Nantucket for as long as I please, the alternative being North Andover. It kind of seems like a no-brainer, but it seems so risky just to run away to an island for the summer without knowing anyone as opposed to something stable.. regardless, if I don't decide to live out there, I'll definately be spending a good amount of time there. Nantucket seems like the decision i'd be most happy with..visitors would be greatly appreciated. seriously. come live with me.
on another note, I seriously need to work on my abilities to buy tickets in advance. I'm missing Jose Gonzales, The Books and Wolf Parade in the next couple of weeks because the Boston shows were sold out so fast. who knows, I might be Providence-bound for the Wolf Parade show. Those tickets always seem to go at a much slower rate.
tomorrow Jacqui and I (Andy has to work) are heading into the city to look at apartments in the JP area. wish us luck. then sunday, I'm moving back to good old smith hall. just nine more weeks to go....
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1. Choose a band / artist and answer ONLY in titles of their songs:
minus the bear
2. Are you male or female:
women we haven’t met yet
3. Describe yourself:
I lost all my money at the cock fights
4. How do some people feel about you:
hooray!
5. How do you feel about yourself:
just kickin’ it like a wild donkey
6. Describe where you want to be:
absinthe party at the fly honey warehouse
7. Describe how you live:
fulfill the dreams
8. Describe how you love:
fine + 2pts
9. What would you ask for if you had just one wish?
Lemurs, man, lemurs.
10. Share a few words of Wisdom:
pantsuit...uggghhh
11. Now say goodbye:
thanks for the killer game of Crisco twister
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[23 Feb 2006|02:44am] |
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sometimes the level of immaturity in some people amazes me. woah, suddenly I really want out.
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[22 Feb 2006|03:27am] |
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So I figured it’s about time for an update. MassArt is going well I suppose; foundation year is a lot different than I expected it to be. I’m enjoying very few of the classes at this point, but if what I hear from upperclassmen is correct, it’ll get a lot better once I’m in my major. Which has also yet to be decided. I’ll stick it out for at least next year, then maybe a transfer is in order, who knows. I have a great group of friends here, feel like I’m learning so much from living here and the connections I’m making with people; I’m generally liking my life here at the moment. I don’t think I’ve ever lived this intensely; sometimes it’s stressful, but in the end, I’ll be glad it’s all done and I did it.
I miss my family and Jacqui and Andy more than anything but I don’t feel like any of our relationships have changed much, which is good. Everyone always says they were surprised who they kept in touch with from high school, but I have to say, I’m not that surprised. Most of the people that I thought would always be there have been, and I still love the people who float in and out of my life just as much, and I’ve never stopped missing them. I can't wait to start looking for an apartment with jack and andy.
Tonight was the Animal Collective concert at the Avalon, which was pretty good. this week is looking up....
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[20 Jan 2006|03:38pm] |
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NEVER AGAIN.
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[04 Jan 2006|09:25pm] |
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everything is changing; the important things/people that remain constant in my life are the only things keeping me sane.
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[19 Dec 2005|07:38pm] |
How many total songs?
5284
Sort by Song Title – first, last
First: Appleseed Cast - …And Nothing Less
Last: Pavement - Zurich is Stained
Sort by Time – first, last
First: 0:15 - An Albatross - w7w7w7w7w7w7w7
Last: 29:02 - Godspeed You Black Emperor - Providence
Sort by Album - first and last songs [only on tracks where the album is listed]
First: !!! – The Step (!!!)
Last: Ex-Models-Three Weeks (Zoo Psychology)
Top Ten Played Songs:
01: Animal Collective - Grass
02: Murder By Death – Until Morale Improves, the Beatings Will Continue
03: Minus the Bear – Absinthe Party at the Fly Honey Warehouse
04: Broken Social Scene – Fire Eye’d Boy
05: Broken Social Scene – KC Accidental
06: Death from Above 1979 – Losing Friends
07: Xiu Xiu – I Love the Valley, Oh!
08: Bright Eyes – Falling out of Love at this Volume
09: The Books – Be Good to Them Always
10: The Owls – That Whorse You Rode in on
Find "sex," how many songs show up?
41
Find "death," how many songs show up?
167
Find "love," how many songs show up?
145
Find "peace", how many songs show up?
Hah. 1. Plea for Peace – Operation Ivy
Find "rock", how many songs show up?
1136
Find"rape," how many songs show up?
3. Pavement, These Arms Are Snakes, Sublime.
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